You’ve probably noticed by now that I don’t publish as frequently as I used to on Missmisschelle. Although I had spent many hours per day writing draft after draft, these posts never ended up being released. So, there are at least five lengthy pieces that nobody will ever get the chance to read by Missmisschelle. This is due to a recent developed blogger's fear of mine - the fear that my posts weren't good or interesting enough to read. Trying to run away from both disapproval and negativity, I ended up pulling myself away from the publishing any new blog content.
This fear originated from a recent feedback I've received on my blog. They advised me to take the time to write and edit quality blog posts instead of continuously publishing mediocre content. They strongly suggested that I'd take my time to write more eloquently, as if I was their favorite novelist painting a beautiful sunset in the most flowery and elegant language possible. However, as much as I appreciate their thoughts, it is still one person’s opinion. I do agree that everybody is entitled to their own opinion, but this does not mean that you have to take that opinion into consideration unless you wholeheartedly agree. Instead of taking their words as constructive criticism to better my blog, I perceived their comment in the worst way possible.
After hearing their comment, I began to fear almost everything that I once never cared about. I feared being an imperfect writer with content that didn't intrigue anyone. I feared that my writing level wasn't up to par with more mature writers. I eventually came to the silly conclusion that if they didn’t approve of my blog posts, nobody else in the world would either. At that time, the easiest solution I could come up with was to avoid publishing blog posts. No publications means no room for criticism, right?
Lately, I’ve been struggling with the fact that I don't feel content with the tone, purpose, or storyline of my blog posts. I told myself that every blog post I polished could have been better and, at the time, it made more sense for me to not publish an imperfect blog post. In the past few months, it became an emotional battle with myself. Do you know how shitty it feels to be the person who wants to spread positivity and inspiration amongst the world and be the same person who takes away that voice?
Luckily, a good friend recently came into my life and helped me realize that I cannot hide away in fear forever. As a full-time freelance lifestyle blogger, I’m supposed to be continuously producing content with no fear of judgement or hate. She told me that as much as I try to be the best version of myself in the world, there will always be people who won't be happy with the work I publish or support my career. She advised me to continue what I was doing and to be proud of what I’ve accomplished so far. Being the supportive friend that she’s always been, she told me that I was doing great and to keep doing what I’ve been doing. With my friend’s guidance and positive words of encouragement, she has helped me rediscover my love for blogging and I couldn’t be more thankful! :)
In the last couple of months, I’ve learned a lot more about myself than I thought I knew. As a full-time blogger, people will always look up to you for inspiration, whether it'd be tips or advice on fashion, food, lifestyle, or travel. In order to be a successful blogger, you have to radiate confidence in your words and stay active with your audience. After all, there’s no such thing as a blogger who disappears whenever she pleases.
In 2017, I told myself that this is the time to be fearless. That’s why I’ve decided to give it my all this year – to not be afraid to reach out to other creatives in the industry, to jumpstart my YouTube channel, to speak on a panel, and much more! I have high hopes for 2017 and I hope that you can all follow along my adventures via Instagram (@missmisschelle). Fears are the factors that hold us back from growth and change, and I hope that you all will be fearless with me in 2017. Let's grow and change for the better, and let's be fearless together!